Did you ever just sit and think about the people close to you and miss them terribly? They could be sitting right next to you, and yet you yearn for something that's not quite there at the moment.
You can glance at your son and see a flash of him the way he was as a chubby baby. Or your daughter could say something that gives you a glimmer forward to her college years. Or your husband might peck you on the neck while you are standing in the kitchen and you think of that same kiss happening over 10 years ago in a different kitchen. In a different house.
I love and hate those feelings because they make me both smile and lower my eyes at the same time. Those feelings make me nostalgic for different times that both occurred and will occur in the future.
But they make me discount right now.
I don't like that.
Because right now is fantastic. Right now there is snow falling like feathers outside. Right now the lighting is just right for writing. Right now I'm anxiously awaiting those smiling faces who will tell me about their days and give me hugs and hold my hand without thinking about it.
And then tonight will be filled with Right Nows that are even more magical. The Right Now that involves reading Harry Potter to my son. The Right Now that lets me touch my daughter's ever-so soft cheek and wish her a good night's sleep after prayers. The Right Now when I lay on my favorite spot snuggled to my husband's chest with his arm draped over me.
No more missing them. I love them right now.