I'm wishy-washy. I always have been. Now that I have kids, I'm standing strong in my wishy-washiness unless you can convince me otherwise...which you probably will. There are debates all around me about very important things, but I will calmly walk past them like I would a store front at Christmastime drinking my travel mug of tea. I like to watch them from afar so as not to be confused with being sympathetic to one side or the other. Unless the debate involves Hellman's Mayo vs. Miracle Whip, I don't prefer to take sides.
No, I don't know which is better: To vaccinate or not to vaccinate? Let the kids ride the bus or don't? Red meat or veganism? Organized religion or individual spirituality? Paid preschool or public preschool? Santa or no Santa? Stay at home or go back to work? Democrat or Republican? Regular or decaf? Paper or plastic? Credit or debit? Sugar or sugar substitute?
How the heck would I know? All I do know is how I feel at the end of the day. Usually tired and usually sitting on a pile of unfolded laundry. But content all the same. Happy with the choices I made for the day.
Those choices come up more than once, might I add. Every time they come up, I seem to have a different outlook. One day it's OK for the kids to have a snack at 3PM. Other days, it might spoil their dinner. One day we eat all organic. The next it's three straight meals of McDonalds. One day the house is spotless. Then next it's total tornado aftermath.
It works for me. Or maybe it doesn't, but I'm pretty sure it does. If life weren't at least a little bit wacky, how fun would it be? I used to hold onto these ideas that I felt were so important: Don't like mainstream music. It's not cool. Don't let the kids have sugar because too much is bad. Don't talk to that person because so-and-so said she's not nice. Boycott that product because they did this or that to the environment. Blah blah blah...
Now I just take it day by day. It's easier and makes me more happy. It slows me down to better take it all in. Today, I'm making a craft for my daughter's class. I didn't check to see if the materials were organic. I'm doing it while drinking tea with sugar and listening to LMFAO on the radio. I might go for a run later, but I also might order a pizza.
Have fun. That is all.
